Experience of Pain

I’ve made the experience of Pain

My body is over

Although I’m only forty years old

But I look awfully older

And my brain

Is weeping

Red tears

It’s very painful

Like thousands of knives

Stuck in my flesh

I try to fly away

From the runaway train

For nowhere

But I can’t

I can’t

I’m locked up into the ruins

Of my own downfall

It’s pitiful

Alcohol and Madness

Are stronger than me

My feelings are broken

As the neck of crows

After the battle

Then lying on my white bed

I crossed your eyes

And I’ve seen nothing inside

Except compassion

But it’s time to go

Devil is ahead

He places a frozen kiss on my head

Don’t be sad

Remember that

I made the experience of Pain

This is the decisive moment

To leave my body

This is the decisive moment

To leave you

My Love

My Life

My Eternity

No more pain

Please no more pain

All my Soul is begging you

My cruel Lord

But you remain as usually silent

While outside is falling the rain

Like invisible missiles

And I listen with a sudden inner Peace

The strange sound

Of crows falling on the roof

XK (Limoges, le 10.05.22)

Crédits : L’Arbre aux corbeaux de Caspar David Friedrich (1774-1840), 1822, huile sur toile, 54 x 71 cm, Musée du Louvre (Paris)